Sunday, 13 October 2013

super delayed blog... contains some EXCITING news...

ok, so i think it's fair to say that i have been a very slack blogger. i've been offline for the past 6 months, and to me that deserves the title! things have been a little hectic in the loratet household and i've been a little distracted, to say the least, hence my departure from the online blogger world. so, where do i start. i suppose at the beginning. now bfore i get into this long winded emotional rollercoaster of mine, i will warn you that this is going to be a long post and there will be another to follow up :)

in June this year, hubby and i decided that we were going to stop being 'careful' when it came to having a baby... in our minds we thought that falling pregnant would take about 3-6 months - about the average time these days. we were lucky, we fell the first month... so yes, that's my news WE'RE EXPECTING OUR FIRST BABY!!!

finding out that we were expecting was an interesting ride. i'm pretty intuitive when it comes to my body, so i knew about 2 weeks before my monthlies were due that something was going on. i started feeling a weird tapping sensation and got a little car sick. i also just wasn't myself. i was tired and quiet and for those that know me, i'm not like that at all.

one of my friends was convinced i was pregnant, so she made me go to the doctor to get a blood test to see if i as pregnant, this was about 1.5 weeks before my monthlies were due. i went to get my results and the doc told me i wasn't pregnant, but that it was still early and my HCG levels wouldn't indicate i was. so i kept on going with my daily life, a few days later i thought i'd do a home pregnancy test and sure enough, it was negative. a couple more days later, i still wasn't feeling right and thought i'd one first thing in the morning. this is where the story get's a little funny. i did the test, and according to the instructions you are supposed to wait about 5 mins or so. i did what i had to do and left the tester on the ensuite bench, i looked at it after about a min and there was one line, so i got up and went back to bed telling the hubby that it was over and i definitely wasn't pregnant. a few mins later ,hubby got up to go to the toilet (the ensuite bench is right near the toilet), he comes back into the bedroom slightly panicked and tells me there are 2 lines! I dismiss him, saying he doesn't know what he is talking about. he then proceeds to put the tester right under my face and i could see a faint second line. (pic below) cue in my freaking out here... i looked and looked and thought, there is a line but it's really faint, so i texted a photo of it to two of my girlfriends who have been pregnant before. surely enough, they said it was a positive result.

so off to the doctor i went for another blood test. i had to get this confirmed by a doctor as i was still a little sceptical. my girlfriend came with me to get the results (hubby was at work) and yes i was pregnant. cue in total shock, tears and more shock.and so the journey begins and what a journey it's been so far.

so the first couple of weeks was great, still going through shock, still not believing i was actually pregnant and still freaking out about how quick things happened. from about week 6 things took an interesting turn... this pregnancy hasn't been all i thought it would shape up to be. going into this i honestly thought that i was going to LOVE being pregnant. i was planning on taking weekly photos of my growing belly and being so excited about everything pregnancy related. how wrong was i. from week 6 extreme exhaustion kicked in. i was tired and when i say tired, i mean every second of the day. i felt like i had no energy what so ever. i'd never felt that way before. my commute to work is about an hour in the morning and evening. i was close to falling asleep on the wheel one afternoon and nearly had an accident, so hubby decided it was best for us to drive in together and i can sleep, sure enough that's what we did every day. i would wake up, get ready, have brekky, get in the car, sleep again, go to work (although at times i wonder how i did it because i wasn't really present at times!), get in the car sleep again, get home, shower, eat dinner (my mum was cooking for me at the time), then go to sleep again. yep, that was my daily routine. about a week later, add nausea to the list. oh that was fun, the constant feeling of being sick. i hated every second of it. the spewing came not long after and typically happened of an evening on the way home from work, but it started happening at all hours of the day.

now some people reading this may have had a totally different experience, one much worse. my best friend was hospitalised because she was so sick and wasn't able to really care for her kids while pregnant. thankfully, i wasn't like that, but it's the worst i have ever felt, so i can only comment on my experience and what i was feeling. horrible, all the time :(

not many people knew about us being pregnant, except my close friends, family and a few people at work. i had to explain the more frequent working from home moments and the cancelling meetings at the last minute so i can run to the toilet, or if i can't make it, spew in my bin. fun times. oh and add to that my MD walking in on me just as i'm spewing. mortified. those who did know, were so excited for us, but i wasn't feeling their excitement, nor did i feel a connection to something that was making me so sick. it was tough. i didn't want to take photos, didn't want to go out, didn't want to do anything. that lasted about 3 months. i was also showing quite a bit by this stage, so it was getting harder to hide the bump and people were guessing.

things got better after the 3 months, but then came the next symptom of pregnancy, extreme back pain. i was told i had pelvis girdle pain. ouch, ouch. ouch.  i was waddling. i was hurting. i couldn't do much by the time i got home from work. no more heels and no heavy lifting from here on out. i also had to see a pregnancy physio to see what we can do about the pain. cue in next pregnancy symptom... low blood pressure. very low. so low i was told to bed rest. i also had to eat more salt in my diet. this is an ongoing symptom and i just need to stop and rest when i get dizzy. i'm finding that it's worse if i am exhausted from the previous night. i'm just trying to remain as positive as i can about the pregnancy and try to tolerate the symptoms and work with them. it's a blessing to have fallen pregnant and to be expecting our first child and since feeling the little one kick, i've been getting really excited and talking to the bub allot more. i'm currently 20 weeks pregnant and the official due date is 25th Feb however my OB pushed it out a week, so his due date is 3rd march 14.

we are getting really excited about this little bundle of joy, it's been a tough ride but it will all be worth it in the end. i've now started to really get into the nursery and have started buying things for the little one. on monday we find out if we are having a boy or girl, that's where things will really get exciting. we are both sooooooo excited about this part! as i mentioned earlier, i haven't really taken many photos however i have one when i was 18 weeks pregnant. the hubby made me take one and i wanted to share some excitement with my colleagues that are in the US.

19 weeks pregnant with baby loratet
there is so much to talk about now... and given i'm a first time mummy i'm going to make mistakes, learn and keep learning.  in terms of the more fun side of pregnancy and having a baby... i can share that we have already purchased the following items. I've also decided to go with glass baby bottles, after doing some research on pros and cons. i found some great baby bottles from cherub baby, that come with a silicon cover to prevent breakage if dropped. the cover also changes colour if the milk is too hot! so cool! they also come in a great range of colours! i bought a red and yellow bottle for now and will continue to add to my collection once we know if it's a boy or girl. i'm super super organised and i already have the inspiration boards complete for the nursery. i've got one for a girl and one for a boy. i'll share these in my next post, when i share the news of what we are having!

love to you all

Danish by Design Troll Series Sun Cot

Danish by Design Troll Series Sun Bassinet

Bugaboo Cameleon - Special Edition All Black Pram

Safe and Sound Meridian Car Seat in Licorice

Storksak Sofia Nappy Bag in tan

Cherub Baby Glass Bottles

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